Main aisa kyun hoon..

I really wanted to avoid writing on this topic coz dat wud bring d facet of my personality dat i really dont admire but still cant do much to change it( tho i have tried..seriously )..

Well. let me try recollecting how it( it?? m sure u'l realise wat 'it' is after reading the post) all began..

HAADSA 1

I gues it was fourth or fifth semester..papa came 2 see me off at the bus stand as i was going back to college..
papa-" sab kuch le liya hai na..kuch bhoola toh nahi??"
a confident me-" naah, sab le liya hai"
"thik hai pahunch kar phone karna"
"thik hai"

so, i board d bus..
(15 minutes later)
a panicky me- "papa"
papa( surprised)-"kya hua??"
"Bus se utar gaya mai"
(papa's expression in the transit state between surprise and anger)
"kyun"???
(i really dint know how to tell him..so a long pause)
"woh... draft bhool gaya ghar pe"
(by dis time i had resigned to the fury dat was coming on to me..papa's anger)
"waah..mere sher.."
"kahaan ho abhi??"
" jodapokhar se dus minute aage"
(i catch my bus for ranchi from jodapokhar)

(10 minutes later..papa arrives, definitely gusse se dekha hoga unhone mujhe, but i dint know..dint look him in the eyes)..
An angry papa trying to act cool-"baitho"
so scooter pe baitha..papa got me home..
mom(surprised to see me)-"kya hua??"
embarassed me-"kuch nahi, woh draft bhool gaya"
"hey ram"
"aur woh amulya ka draft??"
( amulya is my senior at college and my colony mate ..his mom had given me his demand draft 2 b given to him at college..during the ride back home with papa, i was literally praying dat mom doesn't ask bout his draft..but honi ko kaun taal sakta hai??)
me(further embarassed)- "woh liya tha maine"
papa(still angry and definitely not amused by my guts to tell mom dat i remembered 2 carry someone else's things but not mine)-"waah..bahut acche"

i really was in no positon to say anything..draft liya nd papa again dropped me at the bus stand..( and dis time no" kuch bhool toh nahi gaye" wala dialogue)


HAADSA 2

I was returning by train from jamshedpur after lots of shopping for clothes..needed some formals for my trainng at samtel..the train reached chaibasa..jhinkpani(where i stay) is 30 mins by train from chaibasa..so, i thot il take a quik nap..i wake up after some time( i still think i dozed 4 not more dan 5 mins)..dekha apne ACC ka factory dikh raha hai..so, i was cool ki do minute mein il b at d jhinkpani station..but, tabhi i get dis sudden chill running down my spine..factory paas dikhta hai as we approach d station..but, abhi d factory was receding from me and the train dint seem to stop..tabhi, d realisation came 2 me
( neend toh toot gayi but my nightmare was about to start)..

to be continued..